Sometimes my biggest fear is That I will never be remembered I will go through life Completely unnoticed And pass to the other side Entirely unmissed Sometimes my truest truth is That I am not worth anyone’s love I cannot make it right No matter what I do Because it is not in me to do it They don’t respond to me that way And no one really cares anyway Who am I to be cared about? What have I done to deserve anyone’s attention? I reach for the sky Like branches shoot forth from the beam Look at me! Look at me! No one turns around No one hears. What do I lack? That I cannot Attract? It lasts but a fleeting moment And then it is gone And I’m left searching again Can you wear your broken heart On your sleeve? Is it a medal, or a talisman? A scar, a wound, a badge of pride? A deficit that won’t be overcome? Is it a lesson driven deep Beneath your skin And sweated out every time you rush forward Your heart speeds up In anticipation And falls down in Disappointment The break was not mended The happiness awoke For but a moment And then went back to dreaming While the heartbreak carried on Awake, alive and well. You did this You ruined every good thing You ever had And now you ruin the next thing And the next And still reach for the stars Though they wink away As they fall to earth The dreams unmade And the hopes unrealized “this is not for you” they say You don’t get to come up here You can only watch and wonder Why It was never your turn Why You struck the atmosphere And fell back down Why You can feel the sharp cold air As you rise But cannot wrap yourself in the warmth As you fall Why don’t you get to be one of them? The lucky ones The loved ones Those remembered?
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